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other people know it's not "all in your head" Please join me in keeping it
real.
My
problems started a little over two years ago when I suffered from temporary
hearing loss in
my left ear. I'm 53 years old
and I already had noticed a slight hearing problem and planned to have
my hearing tested. I went to an ENT who found I have hearing loss in
both ears about the same, especially in the range of human speech. Hearing
aids were recommended and I subsequently obtained a pair and use them
on occasion to improve me ability to hear people. However, the temporary
hearing loss situation remained unexplained. This loss was almost complete
loss in my left ear that would be there when I woke up and last the rest
of the day. My ENT suggested an MRI and that showed a fairly large arachnoid
cyst (about 4 X 5 cm) in my left temporal lobe. My ENT suggested seeing
a neurologist about the cyst, which I did, and which began my first real
experience with the medical system.
That first neurologist was cautious about the possibility the cyst
was causing problems and, even if it was, whether anything could
be done
about it. I had a few more episodes of hearing loss in that ear over
the next month or so but I also began experiencing a variety of other
symptoms. The hearing loss turned into a very bad case of tinnitus mainly
in my
left ear. (The person who mentioned standing in
front of a DC10
comes to mind.) After two years, I'm still very frustrated with the
noise. I listen to music all day long to keep from going nuts.
I've always listened
to music a lot so this is not a big change; however, I now have speakers
in my pillow to help me to go to sleep at night (and back to sleep
after waking up in the middle of the night). When this problem
started and
I looked into the topic online, I was not surprised to see that the
suicide rate for people with tinnitus is much higher than the
general population. Unfortunately, I've not found that any of
the medical people I've seen think the noise is connected to the cyst.
They just say it's a result
of my hearing loss, even though that was diagnosed as a chronic condition
that has gradually worsened over the years for both ears. I don't agree
with that diagnosis.
Also, at the time of the temporary hearing loss/tinnitus, I started
having severe headaches unlike any I had experienced in the past. I've
always
had fairly strong headaches but I've never considered them to be classified
as migraines. Over the years, I found that Excedrin worked well to
relieve the pain (neither aspirin or acetaminophen alone worked; neither
did ibuprofen). These "new" headaches did not respond to
Excedrin but did respond to ibuprofen--usually after an hour or so.
I would
be in excruciating pain at times and, during one episode, I realized
for
the first time why some people would rather not continue living rather
than remain any longer in such pain.
Also, at the same time, I was experiencing some sensory disturbances.
About eight years ago, I started experiencing some sensory changes
in my right foot. It was never very severe, just a bit "fuzzy" or "tingly." I
was concerned but it didn't progress and didn't seem to be connected
to any other problems. I used to jog regularly and someone suggested
it could be a carpal tunnel problem from too much impact. When all
of this started a couple of years ago, the sensations in my right foot,
and now in my right hand and lower arm, became more pronounced. I also
started getting some pain spikes in those areas. I also had a few episodes
of smelling things that weren't there. I'd never had that happen before
even though I've always had a very sensitive sense of smell. I can't
handle certain strong odors. They trigger sort of an allergic reaction
in my respiratory system. Almost any of the synthetic odors in colognes
will do it. My wife knows not to use anything around me. Even some
of
the hand lotions she has gotten have made me sick. Microwave popcorn
and hot oil will have me wheezing and sneezing. This sensitivity to
smells in general has worsened somewhat but I'm no longer having a
problem smelling
things that aren't there.
My first neurologist had me see another neurologist who had me go through
some tests. I had an EEG that did not show anything. It was just the
quick test, not the one done over a period of time. I also had conductivity
tests done on my right leg that showed no problems. I've not had any
problems walking and no loss of coordination through all this, fortunately.
The reason I say "fortunately" is because I had rheumatic
fever when I was four years old. At least that's what they called it
at the
time. I was put on penicillin for two years. I can't recall how long
it lasted but I could not stand up because one leg would just collapse.
That went on for maybe a few weeks or so. After all of this other stuff
began happening, I looked up the symptoms for rheumatic fever, only
to discover that I don't recall having any of them. I don't remember
any joint pain or any pain at all and I'm sure at that age I'd remember
having any pain. I've asked my mother but she can't recall which leg
it was.
I'll lay odds it was this right leg and was some early manifestation
of the cyst.
I guess I've been lucky because I never had any other problems that
I could attribute to this condition over the years. I've mentioned
headaches
but they were not clearly localized. Now, my head pain is clearly in
the area of the cyst and is of a different nature. I've had a minor
problem with opthalmic migraine since my mid 20s. That's when you get
the scotoma (flashing, expanding lights effect) but without getting a
migraine
headache with it. These events would just leave me a bit disoriented
and irritated
because it interferes with my vision for about 20 minutes. I have it
irregularly a few times a year at most, often associated with stressful
times, but it does not occur during all times of stress. I've had it
occur only a couple of times since these more recent problems started,
once when my head was pretty bad and I was in a stressful situation.
I was not prescribed any specific pain medication during the initial
stages, except my dentist who gave me a prescription for Ultram for
pain from a root canal. It seemed to help the head problems a little,
mostly
the mood part, not the strong pain. I asked about getting a pain killer
but was told there would be problems with rebound headaches. I began
experiencing
rather severe mood swings that continue to this day. I
have days when I'm not in much pain but feel like my head is rotten.
I don't
know a better way of putting it. I wake up in the morning feeling very
bad, like I'm physically/mentally sick. I really hate waking up with
this mood deficit that ruins the rest of my day.
That second neurologist thought I might be having partial complex seizures.
Even though the tests didn't seem to back this up, he put me on Keppra
which, fortunately, has very few side effects compared to other anticonvulsants.
I don't know if that medication ever did anything and, after moving
months later, I just stopped using it with no discernible change. Back
then, I was pressured by family members to get a second opinion and
went to a well-recognized clinic in Birmingham (Kirklin) where I saw
another
neurosurgeon who looked at my films but suggested taking a wait-and-see
approach. He had me see another ENT there, as well as get a battery
of
neuropsych tests done. The tests showed I was fine, despite the mood
swings I was experiencing. The ENT suggested I might have cochlear
hydrops, which is a form of Meniere's disease but without the dizziness.
Fortunately,
I've not had problems with dizziness. This ENT also gave me a prescription
for Xanax to help me sleep with the tinnitus. I took it infrequently
but never liked the way it knocked me out and made me feel woozy the next
day, even with have a dose.
My first ENT had me tested for cochlear hydrops (another conductivity
test) and determined I had an inner ear problem. That diagnosis would
explain the fluctuating hearing loss and tinnitus I had been having.
Since I already had a fairly low-salt diet, I was put on a diuretic.
That was the worst stuff I've ever taken. You're constantly dried out,
out
of breath, and tired because it lowers blood pressure (it was the
same one used in lower dosage for women on birth control pills, which
raise blood pressure). I was on that for over a month and never noticed
any change. My temporary hearing loss episodes had given way to the
tinnitus and the tinnitus remained as bad as ever.
After moving, I began seeing another neurologist who had another MRI
done (my third). There was no apparent change in the cyst and no indication
of inflammation. I pretty much received the same message: the cyst
has probably always been there, there's no strong indication it is
the cause
of the symptoms being experienced, and, even though surgery (drain
and shunt) were an option, it might not alleviate the problems--and could
make matters even worse. Other than the rotten head days and mood swings
with some head pain, I was able to maintain pretty normal daily activity,
working a busy, somewhat stressful job. Then a little over a year ago,
I started having much more head pain. I was put on a tricyclic antidepressant,
Nortriptyline, at that time. The drug relieved the pain but I had to
deal with these new side effects: almost no stamina, low energy, and
constant dry mouth. After about three months, the pain was back on
a daily basis. Daily head pain with sharp shooting pains at times through
the left side is a new feature.
My neurologist wanted to increase the dosage but I complained that
the side effects were already too much and my health was suffering
from lack
of exercise. That stuff also totally eliminates appetite. I would eat
only because I knew I had to. Food tastes normal but you're just not
interested in it. Great for dieters, I suppose. It also eliminated
any enjoyment I had in drinking (beer and wine). I like a glass of
wine or
beer with my evening meals. No more on this stuff. Great for alcoholics,
too, I suppose. My neurologist then switched me to Desipramine, another
tricyclic antidepressant that had been found to work for headaches.
He said the side effects were not as bad, and they weren't. My stamina
was
back and I could exercise. The dry mouth was still there but that's
mostly an annoyance. Pretty good. For about six more months, then the
pain,
rotten head, and worse, bad sleep ruined my days. The sleep disorder
was very upsetting, waking up after only a couple hours completing
distraught over some nightmarish situation that would not go away unti
the early
hours of the morning. So my neurologist took me off the Desipramine.
That was late summer and I went through withdrawal for the next month
or so (the tricyclic antidepressants change your brain chemistry so,
even though they are not addicting, your brain has to readjust). So
I had the pain along with the withdrawal (head allergy or cold-like
symptoms
and a motion disorder). The motion disorder was a jerkiness with the
slightest head movement. The best I can compare it to is the jerkiness
effect I remember as a child when I would have very high fevers. I
still have a slight jerkiness to my awareness. It's like my consciousness
sort
of cuts out a bit for small fractions of a second, with my hearing
(noticeable because of the noisy tinnitus).
My neurologist next suggested Botox for the head pain. It took a while
for the insurance to agree to pay for it, and then he administered
it. That was about three months ago. I had a nice smooth forehead for
a while
but no noticeable change in the pain and bad days. So, at this point,
he suggested I see another neurologist, one on the team at the Loma
Linda Medical Center here. Again, a very well recognized place and
team of
neurologist. My neurologist had worked with them for a while. We had
discussed possibilities at different times, such as surgery. He said
that, even if they suggested such an option, I still ultimately would
have to decide. He is concerned because the cyst is close to my speech
center and I could end up not being able to talk. I've just recently
seen that neurologist--my 5th neurologist/neurosurgeon--and she is
having me go through more tests this month. Another EEG with sleep
deprivation
so I'll be tested over an hour or so this time. A visit the their neurosurgeon
group who will look at my MRI films--and another bank of neuropsych
testing. I meet with her at the end of the month to find out what treatment
she
recommends at this time.
I've been off meds for more than four months so I have a pretty good
idea now what my real symptoms are. I've got almost daily head pain
which, at its worst, feels like my brain on the left front is exposed
to cold
air--sort of like when the dentist shoots air on a drilled tooth! Not
fun. Plus I get shooting pains at times through the left side. I've
got the constant tinnitus that seems to worsen at times. I failed to
mention
earlier that I have had facial tics since this all began. Well, they
come and go and most of the time are on my left side. They last for
months sometimes. Currently, it's my left eyelid. Sort of a subdued
twitching
that's there first thing when I wake up in the morning and, of course,
is more noticeable with stress and concentration.
I can usually feel pain when I put pressure on my left eye and that
eye gets tired and scratchy early in the day. I've been using lubricating
eyedrops but it doesn't help much. I also forgot to mention my sensitivity
to light in general that has been a problem from the very beginning.
I've always been somewhat sensitive to light and have to wear sunglasses
even on cloudy days outside. Inside, I abhor fluorescent lighting.
It
makes me sick and has caused headaches for many years with too much
exposure. I seem to be sensitive to both the brightness and the color.
I also am
sensitive to the flickering from the 60 Hz frequency that most people
don't notice. I have the same problem with CRT computer screens and
have used LCDs for many years. When all of this started a couple of
years
ago, my light sensitivity worsened. I almost passed out once when I
entered a large store and looked up the banks of fluorescents across
the ceiling.
At work, when there are meetings in rooms with fluorescents, I have
to shield my eyes. I have an appointment next month to try to get filtered
or tinted glasses for indoor use.
My eyesight, like my hearing, has deteriorated with age and I wear
reading glasses and have prescription glasses for distance that seems
to have
gotten much worse lately. Many days my vision just feels very blurry
and I've had problems in stores for some reason where the rows and
rows of products make me very queasy after a few minutes of looking.
I just
have to sit a close my eyes for a while. I also haven't mentioned
that, as the pain has pretty much "stabilized" on the left
front of my head where the cyst is located, my upper left molars
hurt much
of the time. When I had a root canal (only one) more than a year
and a half ago, I the pain lasted a long time but now I know it's
not the
root canal that is the problem. The problem on this side also affects
my sinuses a bit. About a year ago, more hearing tests and getting
my hearing aids, I had a third ENT check things over. I had x-rays
of my
sinuses showing there was no problem with them. I also had my nerve
pathways checked (vision and I forget what all). Still no problems--proving
what?
That this is all in my head! I have this constant mental battle going
on where I try to convince myself that it's just that--all in my
head, in other words, psychosomatic. But then when the pain and other
problems
really hit, I know better. Still, it's an endless mental loop. Finding
this list and hearing more people with similar issues helps me realize
it ain't just all in my head!
I have recently applied for disability and am working with my employer
on going on disability leave. I haven't taught a class (university)
since early November and in the past few weeks have not even been going
in
to my office that much. I've gotten so far behind in my work I could
never catch up with the problems I'm experiencing each day. I can't
face teaching again. Classes are in the evenings with adult students
and my
problems usually worsen as the day goes on. Because of that, I'm sleeping
up to nine hours a night to keep reduce the severity while awake. Even
taking days off, sitting at home and not trying to focus too much on
work, I'm still having lots of pain and problems. I used to enjoy riding my motorcycle and could ride only intermittently
during this period. I stopped riding completely several months ago.
My bike is just collecting dust and I should sell it since I'm not
riding
but doing that would be like giving up! Even though I'm pretty much
resolved to working around this problem now, I won't give up on the
idea that
I can get better. I'm looking at alternative work situations and hope
not to be in this disability situation for long. I have a wonderful
wife who works very hard because she is putting two boys (previous
marriage)
through college by herself. I get very irritable and testy and hurt
her too many times. It's not enough to apologize and try to explain
what
I'm going through. She has pain, too, with a pinched nerve in her back,
yet she is constantly working and maintaining a very positive outlook
on life. I am very fortunate in that respect but, sometimes, I just
want to crawl into a hole and not have to be a burden for anyone.
Again, I apologize for the very long message. I hope to hear from other
who are having similar experiences. Because I seem to be approaching
a time when it will be more difficult to rule out surgery, I am interested
in hearing how that has helped (or not). I've already read of post
op problems people have had (here and elsewhere, such as BrainTalk).
Mostly,
I've heard about the drain and shunt procedures. I have not heard much
about the endoscopic fenestration procedure that sounds less invasive
and avoids shunt maintenance and complications. Please let me know
if you have any experience with this procedure (res1cs7h@verizon.net).
Thanks
for listening!
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